God had a Dream, so
here we are.
I had a feeling, so I
wrote this.
…
On this musty,
mid-summer morning, I meditate beside boilers, boxes, and tons of trash that I
need take out to make my cash.
I must lower my
head, not only so I don’t get popped by a pipe but to give thanks for this
place I write.
A better space
there might be, but this place I see is just right for me.
“Peace of mind or peace in mind?”
Green Street Matthew used to say. But it feels like both on this day.
There’s “peace of mind” knowing I
was able to walk to the bathroom last night, and it’s been a while since I’ve
witnessed a fight, or maybe it’s just that my first book might take
flight.
That book opened with degrees of
my life and gave me light that I should continue to write about the classes of
my latest plight.
Well… Welfare “101” wound me up
in work programs. Then I headed to
hassles in housing court, attended events of eviction, felt frustrations in
family court, only to deal with dozens of dollars of debt.
In these months past, I must also
ask: Did I pass or did I fail when I
fell in love? Perhaps I got a “D” for
dismissal, but was that my destiny?
And even though some might have
misunderstood my motive, I still wound up at the University of Unity.
There, I sensed sympathetic souls
whose spirits lived long days of loved ones that lead lives with leukemia. And on Wednesdays, I witnessed woes and
wonders of wellness ‘til toddlers got timely transplants.
Finally, my financial funding
fell to staying afloat, and as my feet throbbed, through 3 jobs a night. Fatigued, I flopped on the floor to see scans
of my spine.
Though the body was still, I was moved in mind when my
morning mediation lent these willing words.
“Paul, pain just tells your brain that you are not insane and you
can feel. So make an internal deal, and
you will be given the ability to heal.”
So now I seem to
serve a residence of routine where I regularly reside and try not to hide, on
each day when I let God lead the way. Where? To a place I find, “peace in
mind.”
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